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It really does figure

Nine days until my birthday. Two until the big my birthday/sis-in-law birthday/Mother's Day party and what do I do? Mess up my ribs. Again.

I've no one to blame but myself, really. I was babysitting yon youngest kidlet yesterday (who, as an aside, will no longer be the youngest kidlet come the end of July) and...well, she's not getting any lighter, and I'm not getting any younger, is the best explanation I got. Even after I healed from the injury last time, I still felt twinges every once in a while, especially if I moved wrong or lifted something too heavy. And now I'm paying the price. Again.

Don't mind me, really. As usual, I'm in a funk about this and that. Been really self-doubting lately about the latest novel, mostly along the lines of "Who would even want to read this/why am I wasting my time?" or variations thereof. So that's been fun, trying to power through and get this blasted book done already.

The other issue I'm having is one I've been stewing about off and on for a while. Not to get into heavy details, but there's a certain person I consider a friend. We haven't talked much lately. I've tried reaching out a few times, but never get a response. Despite the fact we've always gotten along really well, I start wondering if I did something wrong or offended this person somehow. Or if they've just decided, hey, I've got all the friends I need so I'm going to cut this one loose.

I'm sure I'm being paranoid. But it all goes back to that self-doubt again. I don't particularly understand why people like me, among those that do. I'm well aware I'm not the best friend to have. Especially when I'm feeling like I am now, or if I'm so wrapped up in my own little world I forget about other people. Still, I try to do the best I possibly can.

So yeah, I'm just all sorts of fun at the moment. But there are good things in life right now, and I know my problems are small compared to what's going on in the world. So I'll just find my inner calm and some perspective, and I'll be okay. Well, okay as I ever am.

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ladyofshallnot
May. 6th, 2011 04:31 am (UTC)
Get on AIM and tell me about your heroic injuries, stinkface. )< <3<3
emmy_scarlet
May. 6th, 2011 05:21 pm (UTC)
You're the stinkface, stinkface. So there *sticks out tongue* And just for the record, though I'm sure you already know it, the friend I was referring to wasn't you. I know that no matter what, you and I will always be solid. After as long as we've known each other (eleven years, holy cow) I know I'm stuck with you ^_^
ladyofshallnot
May. 6th, 2011 05:27 pm (UTC)
I believe you will find it is you who is stinkface.

(No seriously get on AIM I wrote a fucking romance novel and I need someone to proofread this shit it's about werewolves. WEREWOLVES)

(and then I will make you read Homestuck)

(and then I will stick in some parentheses)

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emmy_scarlet
May. 6th, 2011 08:51 pm (UTC)
Sure, feel free to email me the werewolf romance novel. I can't promise it won't be full of snarky comments in red font, mind you. But I'll try to do some actual proofreading too. But I warn you, with the party and my birthday next week (and a baby shower) it might take me a while. Is there a deadline I would have to worry about?

(and you're the stinkface times infinity. Plus two).
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